I'm full of ANGER
for many reasons, I won't go into just now . ,I had a Problem dealing with mixed feelings when younger and hide them. In fighting the good courses ,Green Amty nuke war . you name it i was anty the way things were and in many ways still are today, They are wrong and no point in making out they aren't Because that's just about right lie, My family . well,ish ly OK when it came to money , white christian family of 7 .five kids, so No big problems there Or so it always looked to the outside world. I see and even today see my family as dysfunctional ,in the extreme . on top mind you of the church putting its 50cents worth in to fuck me up . As a kid there was only one person higher up the food chain than my dad and that was the preacher man. So when this man yelled to the church , (you being one of the few kids made to sit through the fill hour and a half ravings)
If gods not in your heart your going to burn in the fires of hell and your sole will be lost Forever forever ever ever er er r r r! you get my point , I couldnt remember this thing being in me . I didn't know of a time when his son came into my heart I couldn't say there was a god there . He might of been . but i was 5 or 6 hell I didn't know . But i did know now that i was dammed and going to hell . the holy man just yelled it at me for a hour , I was broken with no way of being fixed
In the car for the short ride home my Dad turned to mum and said ,that was a great service today didn't she think ?
Yes , Not a truer word ,could of been spoken .
All good people should have this God they kept talking about within their soles. whats this , theres a sole too Now In there Where are these things they keep talking about and I must be so very alone as none of my sisters or brothers have said anything to the point of not having these things within themselves ,IT MUST JUST BE ME . and there it was from that age to today I've been made to feel worthless dirty and EVIL, by the very group of people.
that should've been there to shoulder each other when needed, to inspire one's good points as well as understand ,any faults ,
The highs with the lows .
Like I said Dysfunctional .
Shit Ive gone and done it again
not talked about what i wanted to say ,
I do very much hope to help improve this world we all live apone . but i cant do it alone
BUT more to the point DO ANY OF YOU,WANT THINGS TO CHANGE<OR NOT
because that's where, this anger is coming from
I DON'T BELIEVE ANY LONGER THAT ANY OF YOU DO
PROVE ME WRONG
One high point of living with black KAMA is /,I do get to laugh at the sickening things people do to each other each day
I SEE, HUMANS !!,AS MAD ANIMALS .
( maybe insanely mad Animals)
